I’m not exaggerating that sharing this video and post are the scariest things I’ve ever done in my life. For four years, I’ve been hiding; I’ve hidden from photographs, old friends, parties, new opportunities. Four years ago, after my boyfriend passed away, I embarked on a round-trip journey to hell. Patterns of self-destruction- including binge eating- took over my life, and my "hiding” only worsened them. I've spent the past two years healing, but still hiding. I’m still overweight, and I still can’t believe what I see when I look at myself in pictures, but I have something that I never fully had, and that is self-compassion.
My new job at Kiss My Keto has given me the opportunity to embark on (what I see as) the last phase of my healing. Even though I have hit milestones, my body reflects the exact opposite of my emotional transformation. There’s nothing wrong with having a body that doesn’t look like it belongs in a magazine. However, I know that the body I’m living in isn’t my natural figure but rather a byproduct of unhealthy habits.
Over the past two years, I’ve tried many different methods of weight loss: I saw a weekly nutritionist, injected myself with appetite suppressants, took hormones (I was also diagnosed with PCOS), attended spin classes, and enrolled in a well known HIIT workout program. The keto diet is the only weight loss method I’ve made progress with– and I’m only 6 weeks in.
I want to use my new job, my struggles and triumphs, and Kiss My Keto’s incredible products as a way to reach others. Modern media teaches us to feel shame about mental health problems– whether related to grief, weight gain, addiction, depression, or anything that makes us appear less than perfect. With Kiss My Keto’s support, I hope to help transform this critical attitude into one of compassion. Wish me luck!
I wouldn't have the courage to do this without Kiss My Keto's incredible co-founders Alex Bird and Michael James Herscu, my beyond supportive co-workers Alex Cahill and Ana Liz Ceregatti, my friend Juliette, my family, and my perfect boyfriend J.
I'd love to hear from you! Reach out to me at [email protected].